I started re-reading “The Pursuit of God” by A. W. Tozer a few days ago. I originally bought the book in the late 80’s for 99 cents. That was an excellent price. In fact, for this book it was better than an excellent deal. If you ever haven’t had the chance of reading this book, I would encourage you to. As I reflect on the church and its state, I realize that I am a reflection of the church. The church’s problems are reflect in me. Because of the issues within me, the church reflects those same issues. We often talk about the church being “the people” yet, it is easy for us to forget that any ‘problems’ we see in the church are only there because we are there. One of the area’s I’ve been struggling with is simply connection with God. I’m not sure I always see a strong connection between God and God’s people. It seems we tend to get sidetracked and do all kinds of things, but we forget to be connected with God. A. W. Tozer writes, “The stiff and wooden quality about our religious lives is a result of our lack of holy desire. Complacency is a deadly foe of all spiritual growth. Acute desire must be present or there will be no manifestation of Christ to His people. He waits to be wanted. Too bad that with many of us He waits so long, so very long, in vain.” I find that it is much easier to ‘do’ than to ‘wait.’ However, there are times that I find holy desire only comes in the waiting. We live life at such a frantic pace that we allow holy desire to dry up and blow away. God is waiting, yet my heart moves so fast that I pass God by. The one thing I want is the One. I wonder if that is why my heart is so restless. I want to know God. I am tired of my apathy. I am tired of my complexity. I want to simply bow before God and allow him to speak. I want to know him who loves me beyond belief. I feel that is the only thing that will satisfy my soul.